We bought our tickets today for Malibu. We will be there Wednesday through Sunday of next week. I have a feeling we will get there and I will either be completely in love- or completely hate it. At least I hope the decision will be that easy.

Do you ever get to a place in your life where you think you know absolutely NOTHING about pretty much anything? I really have planned out my life up to this point. Knew what I wanted to do when I "grew up" from the time I was 9. I was raised an ACU wildcat- so that was a no brainer for me. Then back to ACU for my Masters. I was reading in my journal that I wrote when I was 18 that I didn't think I would get married until I was 25...and that is what I did. I knew that I wanted to come back to the East coast and here I am. Now- I honestly have not a clue about what I want to do or what direction I think my life should go in.

More than that I am not sure at all how God works. I know he works in all things, but what is my posture towards him supposed to be? Humble; accepting whatever he has in store knowing that it is the best? Right...but what about free will? Where do I get to choose? Do I go along making my decisions and praying for him to be blessing me along the way or am I supposed to wait and wait until I feel led in one direction or another. What if that isn't happening?

The only thing I know to do is examine myself for rebellion. If it is not there then I guess I believe that as a true seeker God will bless all my efforts.

On a lighter note- I get to dig all my summer clothes out of boxes for this trip. What does one wear to the beach in MALIBU in the middle of FEBRUARY!!!! The idea of it all makes me laugh out loud (LOL for those of you in the know!).